wow

is been 20 days since my last login. seems like i only login when my emotions and feeling out of my control. need to came in here to write something in order to release my feelings. i meet her back last few days, have a good chat, nice dinner and even hug each other. she overnight at my place. but i know she doing all this because someone is away from her. i think she just need a companion. i just curious why i so stupid and become someone that she need when she lonely and ignore me when she is not. i so stupid, maybe i not yet found someone i really need. anyway just treat her as a normal friends.