counting tha days~

today is the 4th day i din hear from her. sometimes i really wondering that, izzit she only will find me when she need my help. or is she just stop contact me when she got someone to talk and relay too. i was curious, even that i know her for 5 year plus, i still not that understand bout her. sometime i wish my brain is a computer, i can delete what i don't want.

seems like i back to freaking mood

because of her, my mood become unstable.
because of her i make someone i love mad.
am i stupid? oh yes...

WTF with me?

old gosh, really never think that she still can have that power to effected me. kinda feel sad bout myself. i`m such a loser. in the end still cant get rid of this feeling. i wish i can control my mind.

OLD MEMORY COME BACK~

oh gosh, what happen to me. jus go out with her few day, old memory and feeling come back ah. even worst when i know that she is single now. and feel jelous when got another boy try to get near her. grr..... i wish i can kill everyone that try to get near her.

Surprise?

today something happen, its really surprise me
i totally speechless when those happen to me, i din expect it will happen.
i thought she will decline or say no when i request i wanna see it.
surprisingly that she say can, even change when i say that i cant see it clearly.

Oh la la~

currently quite enjoying my life as a slacker. wondering how long i can continue like this, wish that after chinese new year everything will getting better.